I started my exit 11 years ago.
My brain clicked on at my baptism.The Father, Son , & Org. statement did it.I went under screeming in my head "No, forgive me Jehovah!"
I spent 18 months slowly being sickened & angry at meetings , dropped from tms &service.
Then took advantage of a situation to stop meetings, assemblies & conventions, but continued to rage inside.
Several years later I was brought to a JC, knew enough to keep my mouth shut or be labled apostate.
I was relieved to have it over with, going through the JC enlightened me in how wrong they were in everything, my anger ebbed.
I was still LUI (living under the influence) , family leaving slowly.
The end of last summer began research that has brought almost all of us out the cults influence. We are a just a normal american family now.
I read for about 3 weeks on the internet, Here,Freeminds, Silent Lambs, following links devowering it all from Christian sites to Athiest blogs to the morphing green lizard people stuff. Then I read CoC, the next week In Search of Christian Freedom, the following week I was off to an EX Witness for Jesus convention.
I plan to read Steve Hassan soon , I have 1 child left in the cult, but lives at a distance so we have been able to move on because of the distance.
Attending the convention & excepting Christ healed me.
Oh, I first studied 28 years ago but after some bad experiences didn't "Progress" after the first year. LUI till taking it up again, cult influence at work.For my family the bad experiences were at least short lived and so somewhat easier to recover from . We had a before JW life to fall back to.
It will be hard for my remaining child, married into the cult with !@#$ inlaws.